aPz..nhie08 =)’s Blog

I’ll never forget you, co’z you made me feel how wonderful it is to be loved. You made me feel the sensation of being kissed. You made me believe that we can make it work out. You made me believe that the feeling will never end. But I never thought that everything was a lie. Its only a fantasy and DAMN YOU!!! for making me believe of those things.

Why did I have to meet you?… And let myself like you a lot?..And then to feel that splendored thing, Of loving you with all my heart!

Why did you have to look at me?…With those eyes that shade my soul?..And then to feel that sudden flame, Of wanting you- your love alone,

Why did you have to talk to me?… With a pleasent voice?..Why I do I have to feel alone?.. With your absence that grieves my soul?…

Why did I ever learn to love you?… And feel this blessed sublimed by loving, wanting, and longing for you-

You who can never be MINE!

You know i love you.
But it’s time for me to step on my heart.
I have lost many people in this life.
And I’ve become a master at this art.

You see, you were everything to me.
I even put your interest before mine.
God knows what i went through for your sake.
When i kept telling you i was perfectly fine.

I loved you more than anything
Don’t get me wrong i really still do.
But reality is so different from what i dreamed you’d be.
I finally saw the other part of you.

I’m afraid i cannot throw all of my dreams.
For a man who wants me as a slave.
I am not one to give in to love’s prison.
Even though it is love that i badly crave.

But you do know i love you.
That is why i have to set you free.
You’re a good man and i know it.
But you just have to let me be.

It is time for me to step on my heart.
Because following it always led to pain.
I’ll step on my heart even though i badly miss your love.
Because I am not one to be bound by its chains.

its supposed to be our 26th monthsary…

this blog is for my nhie..

minahal ko sya..at hanggang ngaun minahal ko sya..ansakit isipin na mawawala na sya sa buhay ko..hindi ko na kayang makita syang patuloy na nasasaktan..hindi cguro ito ang tamang panahon para saming dalawa,..mahaba pa namn ang buhay..sabi nga ng mama nya at mama ko..kung kmi, kmi talaga..pero hindi ako umaasa sa destiny..alam ko na sa ginawa ko, madaming pwedeng mangyari..pwedeng makalimutan n nya ko dahil sa sakit na nararamdaman nya ngaun..bka mapalitan ng galit ang pagmamahal na meron sya para sakin..

akala ko dati hindi nya n ko mahal..akala ko wala lang ako sa kanya..pinababayaan, binabalewala, wala ng pakialam..un cguro dahilan kung bakit ako naghanap ng atensyon sa iba..nagsawa nko maghintay sa taong alm kong hindi darating..

ngaun eto ka..pilit mong pinapakita kung gaano ako kahalaga sayo..ginawa mo ang lahat para bumalik ako..nangangako ka na kakayanin natin toh..humihiling na magsimula tayong ulit..pero tumanggi ako..ayoko na kasing masaktan ulit sa parehong dahilan..sa parehong tao..

bakit kasi ngaun lang? bakit ngaun mo lang ipinaramdam ang pagmamahal mo kung kelan nakapagdesisyon nako na itigil na kung anong meron tayo?sobra na kasi akong nasaktan..sobra akong umaasa sa hindi pala dapat asahan..

sana maging masaya ka..sana mapatawad mo ko sa lahat ng sakit na naidulot ko..hindi ko gustong saktan ka..mahal kita..

salamat sa lahat..

mahal kita nhie..

i’ll miss you..i’ll miss your love..

i love him so much..he’s my life..my everything..

he’s mine..

i can’t live in a world where he dont exist..and i dont want to be happy with anyone but him..he’s all i need..he’s all i want for the rest of my life..

when you’re in love..you hold on to promises..haiz..